But it seems few of us have little time left over in our daily lives to really enjoy ourselves... Maybe that should be our New Years Resolution this year... to take time to smell the roses and enjoy all those things that pass us by without notice!!
It has been a memorable year to say the least with many life changes...many memorable moments some happy some not so happy..
I'd like to say that blogging has changed my life...I've met so many wonderful people here.
All of you have made me Smile, Laugh, Cry, Learn, Share, Care & above all feel special. I wish I could reach out and hug each one of you personally.. instead I'll have to share a vertial hug!!(((((((((HUG))))))))
My businesses did very well considering the economy and boy am I ever grateful for that..
My Primitive Creations actually grew last year..Carmen was sure right when she told me I should learn to create Primitive Decor 6 years ago.
I got to spend another year living of the lake on my Island for the summer a blessing I cherish!
God willing enjoying 2012 on the lake actually on the water in my boat & healthy enough to continue cleaning my houses & spending time with my Island friends.
My health has declined over the past year which has brought on a huge change in my life/lifestyle.. a change that has been very difficult.. I've always been a do as I want, when I want, kind of person living life to the fullest..daring myself to the Challange whatever it might have been... 2012 is going to be a challange for me, one I'm not sure I am ready to face. There are things I'm not yet ready to give up..especially my freedom to enjoy the things I so love..My work, my boat, my creating & my friends on the Island.
This morning I took down the 2011 Calendars and tucked them away in the tax box..LOL..I keep all my records on the calanders. As I tucked them in the box I said a prayer that 2012 would be a better year for world, for me, for my family and for my dear friends.
My visit with the Dr. yesterday didn't turn out as I had hoped it would..but as most of us know hoping and knowing how a Dr visit will go are two totally different things. I do like the specialist she was very nice and explained everything to me...a bit more quickly then I could absorb but none the less she did explain things. As we all know they want to run test after test before they make any comment or diagnosis. & she was no different. She did a new ultra sound on my Thyroid and sure enough she seen the nodule immediately & stated that it had grown. Thank you for adding to my worries...but she said taht doean't necessarily mean anything more then it has grown. I want to schedule you for a biopsy. Ok..as i think that will happen quickly..Not they can't get me in for 6 weeks to do the biopsy...
Then we discuss what is happening to my Thyroid & why it is flipping from Hyper to hypo. She says she thinks from all my former blood test results & hospital stay that there is a huge possibility that what I have is Thyroiditis which is swelling of the thyroid. She then goes on to tell me when the Thyroid swells it allows the thyroid hormone to leak out rather then being sent into my body as it should be causing the hypo.
In other words the hormone is not going into my system like it should so it appears that the hormone level is low which it is but... then she got into the more complicated explination of what is happening then I could really understand.
But what I did understand is that the swelling is more then likely due to my other autoimmune diseases, Sjogren's disease, Graves's disease and Arthritis. In other words everything is attacking my system as if it were a forgien object...fighting against itself...
So she then says I need to run more blood work to determine for sure that is what is happening before we can treat the thyroid problems. Once all of the test results come back I will contact you. I will work with your new Rhumatologist and together we should be able to get this under control.
I know how much discomfort you are in and I understand how upset and worried you are but this is the only way... be patient. Try not to worry or become depressed & stressed as this will only make it worse.
I just looked at her with tears in my eyes and said, Good lord, I have been patient for months now and my body has fallen apart on me and turned me into a invalid practicly and you want me to be patient...I don't have insurance, I'm not able to work & make any money to pay for all these test or your office visits.. if you can't help please don't put me threw this..
She siad I can help you but you have to be patient long enough for us to find out why this is happening to you. It isn't simple because you have so many auto-immune diseases...
Frankly I left there just as sick as I was with little hope that there is really anything she can do. I personally think she is hoping that the Arthritis Dr will have some answers but then again I'm not a Dr. Maybe my misery is clouding my faith in the medical world..making it impossible to see light at the end of the tunnel.
So I will continue to take the best care of myself as I can and pray for some relief and better health soon...
The picture at the top is the Port Clinton, Ohio New Years Eve Walleye Drop Celebration! My house is in Port Clinton & I used to go to the Walleye Drop Celebration every year!
The Walleye Drop made the Huffington Post Internet News front page Head lines today as one of the different ways city's copy the New york Ball Drop... So I thought I would share it with you... It is totally silly but 1000's come to our little town every year to join in on the lake side Celebration...guess that's why we made the Internet Front page news...giggle....
I leave you with Wishes for a wonderful safe and Happy New Years Eve!!
Hugs & Blessings
Tonya
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Oh Tonya, I can only imagine your frustration with your health. I wish there was more that I could offer to help, but I will be faithful in my prayers for you and for your doctors. May their tests be helpful in getting you on the healing path.
ReplyDeleteI admire your sincere attempt to be positive in the face of it all! I will join you in your prayer that 2012 will be a better year for everyone.
Blessings to you!
Melissa
Here's to good health in the new year!
ReplyDeletethank you for stopping by
Cathy
Lifting you up in prayer for strength & healing. Blessings!
ReplyDeleteLara
Hang in there, we are praying for you! I hope you have improved health and many blessings in the new year, my friend! Thanks for stopping by.
ReplyDeleteBear Hugs & Blessings~Karen
Praying for you ~ and wishing you a very happy and healthy New Year!! ~Karen
ReplyDeleteTonya,
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry that you are going through all of this. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
hugs,
Cindy
I do understand how you feel and they always tell us not to worry..not to get depressed yadda yadda yadda..There is NO way you can not worry or be depressed. I will be going for physical in the next few weeks and I worry about it every night when I go to bed and I haven't even gone yet and then there is my stubborn husband who has lost 17 pounds (5 ft 7 and only 141 pounds now) What he doesn't understand is it could be his thyroid making him loose weight. He already had melanomia cancer when in his 20's and was lucky they caught it in time and the surgery worked. I also worry about all my friends that are having health problems and do pray for them every night...I am hoping my prayers for you get answered soon and that you can go back to being the old Tonya from a year ago..I hate getting old..retirement isn't the golden years...it is the rusty years..Hang in there Tonya ((((((BIG HUGS))))))) for you
ReplyDeleteNancy
Oh my dear, I can so feel your hurt and frustration. It is so hard to keep being patient. I'm glad that you have decided to be positive and to take the best care of yourself.
ReplyDeleteKnow that Heavenly Father loves you and that 'if He brings you to it, He will get you through it.' There is a light at the end of the tunnel. I will keep praying for you and your doctor's. That you will be able to handle whatever comes your way.
Thank you for stopping by my blog and for your sweet comment.
Have a wonderful new year. Take care, Janet W.
((((((BIG HAPPY NEW YEAR HUGS)))))
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ReplyDelete☆ A BIG New Years hug ☆ to spread a little Love and Happiness ☆ Have a Happy and Healthy New Year ☆
☆ Happy New Year ☆
Hugs~Carol
p.s. hang in there Tonya and focus on getting yourself well in the new year. (((hugs)))
Tonya..
ReplyDeleteYour in my thoughts and prayers..
Wishing you a Happy and Blessed New Year..
Prim hug's
Trena
Sending BIG comforting (((((HUGS)))) to you Tonya, I know this has to be SO frustrating! You're in my prayers daily, I hope between all of them they can come up with a solution to help you, hang in there! Hoping 2012 is a much better year health wise for you!
ReplyDeleteMissed your Thursday's post (sorry - running woefully behind here), so did not have the opportunity to wish you well with the dr visit. And, now, what exactly do I say? I know you're frustrated - I see and feel the same frustration with my son's failed surgery - but, for you, from what I'm reading the specialist said, I think she's right. We would all like an "easier" answer; a faster "fix" - but, truly, she needs to sort out all the complicating factors and figure out what's really going on - rather than just take a stab at it, give you some meds, and have you have even more complications. I do, tho, think you have a right to be frustrated over the fact that it will be so long before they can do the biopsy...perhaps, tho, that is a good thing too...obviously they must not be thinking there's a high probability that it's malignant, or they'd be getting you in a lot quicker....So - hang in there, and focus on the hope that perhaps this dr is finally going to be thorough enough to get at the root of the problem and really fix it for you....Till then, you'll continue in my thoughts and prayers. Wishing you a new year filled with comfort, healing, and hope....Hugs & Blessings ~ Robin
ReplyDeleteDarn, darn, darn, life just hands us lemons sometimes doesn't it Tonya...I PRAY THAT THERE WILL BE AN ANSWER FOR YOU SOON...I know pain and so I feel for you. I do know that stressing can make it worse - that's a fact - so please try and lessen your stress and worry about it UNTIL you get more answers. You will get answers kiddo.
ReplyDeleteBlessings and hugs,
Karen
Oh Tonya, I hope you get some answers soon and they find some relief for the pain you are in.
ReplyDeleteJust last week, I had to have some thyroid scans for mine seems to be out of wack.
Happy New Year!!!
Hope you find many joys throughout the year!!!
Prim Blessings
Robin