Prayer Request to help heal my neck Health Update--Picture Not for weak at heart

Right after Surgery March 29th 2012 Everything seemed to be going so well..

Good Morning my dear friends... In my last post I shared the Sunshine in my life today I come to ask for your prayers in helping to heal my neck. It has been two months since my surgery and I am strugging to get my life back on track with one infection after another. Building the flower bed with Peg

and playing with the new Kittens has been my salvation.

For Those of you who read my last health Update Post you know that I have been dealing with an Infection  in neck which has caused not only my Incision to break open but has sent me on a real tail spin with my recovery.
I've been so down and down right depressed about the latest turn of events. It seems that I breakdown and cry at the drop of hat. At this point I'm not sure which is worse my infection, the way my neck looks or the depression... I guess its all three..
I thought that my life would start to turn around after the surgery and I would start to be my old self and it just isn't happening at all.
Today I have an appointment with the surgeon to decide what they will be doing to try to get things back on track for me. I'm currently on antibiotics so my neck does look better but the problem isn't solved and won't be until the stitches all come out that aren't desolving.
You have all been so wonderful and full of encouragement, I don't know what I would have done with out your prayers and kind words the past months. Thank you from the bottom of my heart you are the best!

I know the power of prayer and today I have come to ask again for your healing prayers once again.

I couldn't share pictures last week when I posted the latest health update because frankly it was just more then gross but after taking the antibiotics it is not so difficult to look at.
But let me warn you if you are faint at heart skip looking cause it still isn't pretty by any means...

I took this last night after a shower & cleaning the wound so it looks great compared to last week.

Everytime I move my neck or lift my head the wound breaks open. You can see where it has rehealed
in some places in the middle. Last week it was open most of the way across & the large area was the size of the red around the open hole so it was like a 1' long x 1/2' open gap.

You can see the Red infection moving up and below my incision on the left in this next picture.
I suspect that there many stitches still in that area. Last night when I cleaned it I was able to pull a picec of stitches out about an inch long with 4 knots on the end of it. They were not disolved at all.
It felt so good to get it out of there. No longer poking that tender skin. Then it drained alot.

The truth is I'm scared to death what this is doing to me and wonder daily if it will ever heal. I know it will
but still as it continues to be infected and drain ickky all day long, so it is hard for me to forget it is so messed up..I couldn't use bandaids because it needed to drain and they fell off anyway.

So I made these cute little bandana's to tie losely around my neck to cover it when I had to be in front of people since it was ickky all the time and to keep it clean. They seemed to help it to get a little better I think since it wasn't exposed to the elements..

So today I pray to find some solutions when I go to see the doctor..
If I offended anyone sharing I do apologize I didn't mean to offend anyone.

Again please send up your healing prayers...

Thank you all for your support, kind words and prayers they mean so much to me..

Blessings
Tonya