Friday, December 9, 2011
What Christmas means to me~UpDate~Shopping~Selling & the rest of the Hoilday rush!
What started it was the birth of Jesus...Our Savior Jesus Christ~God's only begotten Son~
Somewhere in the midst of the Hoiday Rush the meaning of Jesus Birth got lost.. and the Holiday rush took over.. As I was driving north Tuesday night for my Doctor's appointments and I was enjoying all the beautiful lights I was thinking and praying most of the way... that God would help me threw these troubling times. I prefer being single but there are times when being alone with out a partner or my close family as a part of my life when it's very hard especially when you are sick with no resolution in sight..
As I was enjoying the ride, all the pretty lights and praying I realized I wasn't really alone and most of all I was reminded of what the Holiday season is really all about. Its not the baking, shopping, gifts and decorating or making money but its about the birth of our Savior Jesus Christ.. Its about the reason that God sent Jesus into our world and what that means to me as a Christain.
It means that I'm never alone, it means that I am blessed, it means that my sins will be forgiven if I believe in my Lord Jesus.
It means that when my load gets to heavy to carry I can count of Jesus to help me carry it.
It means that my loved ones will be looked after long after I am gone and even while I am here and can't be there for them the way they wish I could..
It means I will always have someone to talk to when my troubles seem so much bigger then me.
It means that when I feel as if there is no peace in my heart I have only to ask and peace will come.
I love Christmas and all the bight lights and pretty decorations, and giving gifts to others but what I love most is knowing that Jesus was born into this world as a promise that my god will always be there for me and for you.
For this I am Grateful and I am Blessed.
Update: the Doctor's appointment didn't go as I had prayed it would but God eoesn't always anser our prayers as we think he should. I prayed the doctore could write out a prescription for a pill that would make me all better..but it isn't always that easy is it?
Simply put and even tho I understand his reasoning It didn't make me feel any better or fix my problems.
My thyroid is growing and the doctor explained it to me like this. Tonya I can give you a pill to make the Thyroid work better but right now that isn't wise because your Thyroid is growing, we don't have the biopsy of the nodules so we have no clue what is actually going on so the pill could make things worse. We have to strat fresh with another Blood test to see if your counts are changing, we have to get a biopsy of the nodules, we have to find out if you need to have the Thyroid removed or if a pill will make things better. Whether you agree with me or not you have to accept that we have to find the best way to tackle these issues first.
He says, You are a very sick lady right now with several health problems that all play a role in how each one affects your health and each other. They are all auto immune diseases that there are no cures for and generally speaking are only going to get worse.
What we need to do is to get you on the right path to keep them in check which will require the help of several specialist. Do you understand?? ha yes I understand but I don't want to hear that..but I listened threw tears and fear.. By the time I left he had set me up with a Rheumatologist at Ohio State and I already have an appointment with the Endocrinologist.
To make things easier he has already sent out my records to each so there will be no delay hopefully in getting treatment quickly..
Then he wrote a letter to SSI to try to help in the application for disability as he says that I need to try to get SSI as my working days are now limited if not over as I lose more of the use of my hands, site and deteriation of my bones. I cryed and cryed some more damn him I didn't want to hear that... and I sure the heck refuse to accept it even if I know its true..my hands in the past 6 months have turned into nothing but lumps on every joint, the joints in my back & hips have deteriated, the graves disease is stealing my eye sight, the Sjogren's disease has shut down nearly all my wetting glands and as you know now my thyroid has gone haywire. All in the last 6 months..
I applied for SSI and need to get all my medical reports gathered up and sent out to them plus letters of referral and records from all my most recent Doctors and hospital visits. I dropped off letters to all my doctors and dentist up North yesterday requesting a referral letter to SSI for assistance and plan to drop off letters to all my Doctors and dentist down here today.
But I know that I am a fighter and I will fight as long as there is fight left in me...enough of that depressing talk...
Moving on... I did my usual stops at all my Thrift stores while I was up North and on my way home yesterday... Got really Lucky and got most of my Christmas shopping done.
Haily wanted leggins to wear with her dresses & Good Will had kids clothes & shoes for 49 cents each..yep I went nuts buying Hailey her leggins, a couple dresses & some tops... I bought the new baby some baby clothes, found some baby shoes for my gatherings. Got 3 bags for $11 after my golden buckeye Discount...
At another Thrift storee I found a Little Tike desk & Play Guitar for Iain $5, Slippers for Savana 50 cents brand new, A strap on Baby carrier for Angel brand new $2.00, Pot holders for Peg 4 for $1.00, Socks for Jimmy 50 cents each, 4 Dish Towels for Laura brand new 50 cents each. I got a lot more to much to mention but my van was stuffed with Christmas gifts, wrapping paper and gift bags craft supplies and my total for the day was $71...
I did good and feel like I am finally well on my way with being finished shopping for gifts.. Now to wrap them... Get the tree up and decorated.
this uear I'm going to decorate my Tree in Traditional decorations as I don't have all my Prin decorations handy. They are stored at Carmen's but I have traditional decorations here in totes so frigure I'll just use them...I got a few decorations at the Thrift store yesterday..now all I need to do is get someone to help me get my little tree in the Trailer..I think this weekend will be wrapping and decorating ...
Despite all I have actually sold a few things ...I sold 50 rag balls to one of our fellow blogers so I will be busy making rag balls this week... I've sold lots of Rag Garland too..so need to make some more garland.. At least I cans still create those things..Takes me a while but that's okay...
I even have a few bids on Ebay so Thank god I'm making a little here and there ..sure nothing like my income cleaning houses all summer...
I must get moving much to do today... so I will bid you all a wonderful day filled with happy moments!!