Monday, February 25, 2013

Oh the Signs of Spring are all around us...Take a moment to check them all out!

 Just look at those Beautiful Green Flower Shoots Popping up to gather sunshine!
 God's first signs of Spring right smack dab in the middle of my Flowerbeds!
Good afternoon My Dear Prim Friends.......
Praise God its 50 degrees in the sun..here in central Ohio......Of cousre I had to go check out the Flower Shoots & my Herb Garden to see how they are doing again.
Plus I wanted to take a couple of Pics to share all the signs of Spring here...
Oh How those tiny little Flower shoots lift my Spirits and make me Smile!!
 
Even my Herb Garden is coming back to life..Not sure why the picture looks so brown but you can see some of the Fresh Green life peaking out here and there in the picture.
I'm really excited that the Herb Garden weathered winter so well. I'll be able to start picking sooner this year and dry more to use in my gatherings. I may even have some to share or sell if it continues to flurish! I'm really proud of my herb Garden.

Taking down the last of the Lawn & Barn Christmas Decorations today that were frozen to the gound. Get them stored away until next winter.
 
Time to Decorate for Spring and watch for the Easter Bunny!

Take a second look at those perfect signs of Spring popping up towards the Sun...Just like all of us we need that Sunshine.
Take a walk around your yard and check out all the signs of Spring!
Let me know what you see...
Many of the Birds have started arriving and singing outside my office window... I love hearing them sing in the mornings....
 
Time to bid you all a Great Monday, I'm going back outside to suck up all the sunshine I can!
 
Prim Hugs to all...........................Tonya

Saturday, February 23, 2013

HappySaturday & Yep a Sneak Peek

Happy Saturday Everyone! Hope the sun is shinning where ever you are it's Shinning here & I'm Loving it!
I was checking out my flower beds yesterday & surprise lots of Spring Flowers are popping up everywhere..Spring is on its way!
for the past two weeks I've been going in House (my brothers & SIL's) and working on creating Easter Eggs for SIL's forever tree. YOU see I talked her into leaving her Christmas tree up & decorating it for every season...So I've been having a ball creating first Valentine's and now Easter Eggs. this year we decided we wanted to use all spring colors for our Easter Decorations on the trees and all Prim Bunny's around the room, in both the house and my Trailer. I can't wait to show you how pretty it all turned out.....Coming Soon!
I've also been busy in the shop creating Some Beautiful Primitive Gatherings.
 Here's a little Peek!








Have a wonderful Day..Until we meet again may your day be filled with happy moments!

Prim Blessings
Tonya

Saturday, February 16, 2013

Woke up to Sunshine in my Windows!!

Happy Saturday Everyone!
This Sunflower Pictures reminds me of Sunshine smiling down on me...
I woke up this morning to the Sun shinning brightly in my windows. I layed there thinking what a beautiful morning.....wow wouldn't it be awesome to strip all the bedding off my bed. Wash all the blankets and sheets and hang them out to dry.
I mean seriously what an awesome thought...Nothing better then snuggling down into a freshly made bed with line dried sheets and Blankets. Close your eyes and smell the freshness of those line dried blankets!
I started giggling as I layed there thinking of the freshness of things line dried...
I could smell them...
Ok so I'm dreaming its still to cold to hang things out to dry but it sure was a great dream and it made me smile and giggle at myself. I needed that smile and giggle!

Now its time to strip my bed, wash everything and dry them in the dryer... sure wish that dryer could produce the smell of sunshine and a country breeze!!!

Have a wonderful weekend my friends and until we meet again may your days be filled with Sunshine Dreams and happy moments!

Blessings
Tonya

Thursday, February 14, 2013

HaPpY VaLeNTiNe'S DaY! Test Results Update..

Awww that special day when we all get to wish those close to our hearts
                                    A Very Happy Valentine's Day!
You are all very close to my heart. Your kind words, your Friendship, your prayers when needed, your Sharing, your funny story's, & your creative ideas just a few of the reasons you are all close to my heart!

Yesterday just when I needed a big Pick Me Up a little package arrived in the mail.
I was so excited I totally forgot about my health issues for a few minutes.
I opened my little package and a darling little Valentine Angel slid out of the envelope.
Along with a wonderful note from Jean over at PrimCrafts.
Telling me she thought I could use a little Surprise...She said that she wanted me to know that I'm not all alone and that I am thought of often!
She sent me my little Valentine Angel to watch over me and Bless me always.

Wow Jean you have no idea how much My Little Angel lifted my spirits...
She is adorable! I hung her on my Valentine Tree right in front where I can see her.
Thank you form the bottom of my heart Jean for sending her to brighten my days and to keep watch over me always..
Your kindness is so what I needed and so very much appreciated.

I have received yet a second Valentine's Gift.This gift was a gift of a better life ahead.
All my test results came back showing
NO CANCER
found in in the Throat or mouth, No Cancer found in the Breast!
Please join me in yet another Happy Dance!
I've been so worried about the results it was a huge relief to find they were negative.

I think Jeans Valentine Angel was watching over me before she ever arrived!

A Heartfelt THANK YOU all for your prayers.

I seen my ENT yesterday for my after surgery visit and to discuss the Tumor in my Sinus. I still can't talk for more then a few minutes before I lose my voice or it gets all squeaky sounding. He said, that I should have my voice back to normal within a month to 6 weeks. I sure hope so it sounds so strange and hoarse.

As for the tumor in my Sinus, I really didn't get much out of him as to what he plans to do. He said he wanted to speak with the Radiologist before he made any decisions. So I'm playing the waiting game. If they plan to take it out I hope they decide quickly...

Tomorrow I get my stitches out of my Breast..Yehaaa...an awful place to have an itch and boy do these stitches itch....
I still have the lump on my leg but its gotten smaller so I told my Doctor I'd like to wait and see if it goes away before she runs any further test...so we're waiting a month.

This week Not much else going on for me besides Dr appointments and Physical Therapy...
I've worked a little in the evening in the shop but I haven't gotten much done but some sanding and painting. Like I said I just seem to have been unable to focus on things. Hopefully now that things are healing nicely I will get a break for all of these Doctor appointments and I can find some normalcy in my life...Boy wouldn't that be nice...

Time for Physical Therapy so I will bid you all Good-bye for now.
May Your Day be filled with Valentine Hugs and warm memories!

Blessings
Tonya









Thursday, February 7, 2013

Sunshine to the rescue of one very helpless feeling lady!

Good afternoon my dear friends....I hope that the sun is shinning inyour part of the woods! The sun is shinning here today and I believe the Good Lord must have sent it to rescue me. I spent the morning filling the bird feeders, feeding the outdoor kitty's and of course stealing some Kitty lovins for each of the them. I picked up things that had blown all over the yard & burned them. hung my new Wind chime and most of all I forgot about the latest bad news I recieved yesterday for a little while...

As I was holding one of the cats sitting on my step I thanked God for his answer to my prayer last night. I ask him to give me a sign that everything was going to be ok.
He gave me sunshine and Kittys rubbing around my legs and purring in my ears!



How do you handle those helpless feelings you get when it seems like you will never see the end to those very things that drag you down & seems that no matter what you do, you can't change them? Relstionships, Health issues, the weather, money problems, depression..... you know what I mean. We all have our demons lurking just behind the door waiting to trip us up..

I confess my demons have been behind every door tripping me up day after day for way to long now. I can never think of a time in my life that I have been so over whelming depressed or felt so alone and helpless.

Most of you know that my health issues have been out of control and it has been one surgery after another, starting with the Thyroid surgery and then to try to correct the damage my thyroid caused.

Last Thursday I had my throat Surgery & biopsy on my inner right cheek. The surgery went well. I haven't gotten my biopsy report back yet on the cheek so of course I'm pretty anxious about that. I still can't speak louder then a soft voice but I think that will eventually go back to normal. My cheek is very raw where they removed the tissue because of my dry mouth... but it to will eventually heal.

Monday I had to have a CT-scan on my sinus because I have been unable to get rid of this Sinus infection I've had since December 3rd.

Tuesday I had to have a mole removed from my breast that had doubled in size over the last few months. I was shocked when I removed the band aid to find a 2 1/2" inch incision with 14 stitches in it, to remove a mole 1/8th" around.
Good heavens why such a large incision? Called the nurse and she said the doctor said to make sure they got all of the mole out. Well I sure hope they got it all...cause I'm gona have one heck of scar. what what is another scar I have a collection of them..hehe..

After that minor surgery I walked out thinking finally no more surgeries. Now i can work on getting my body & my life back to normal. I was smiling all the way to the van!

Then came Wednesday....I got a call from my Doctor with the results of the CT-scan on my Sinus. Not Good...Not Good at all..
I have Paranasaal Sinus Disease. The Scan shows a Fobro-osseous Lesion (tumor)  measureing 1.4 x 1.4 x 2.0 cm centered in the medial wall of the righ maxillary sinus with groundglass features that extends into my medial hard palate & right medial nasalacrimal duct. Fancy words for i have a Tumor in my right sinus...

Not a surprise since I've been dealing with sinus infections for months but sure a disappointment & so discouraging because this means yet another surgery.
At least it explains why my cheek under my eye has been swollen & painful for months..& why the sinus infection just wouldn't go away...

Sad thing is I had surgery for this very thing 15 years ago..Never thought it would come back but thats before I realized my body was going to stage a huge retaliation against me and screw up all my plans for spending my retirement hanging out on my boat with all my boater friends on Kelley's Island.and creating beautiful Prim gathering in my shop.
Needless to say, I lost it and cryed for hours....I'm tired, I don't have the strength to endure much more. It seems like everytime I take a minute to think.... Thank God finally no more surgeries, I can finally start to rebuild my strength and my life and finally feel like I'm normal...something comes along to slap me down again...I feel so helpless to do anything to stop what is happening to me...
I'm a strong person...well I used to be..I've been threw a lot in my life. In the past I've always felt as if I could beat all the odds and bounce back..But sadly I admit, I don't feel like that anymore and that's the worst thing for me to think...but I simply can't help it.
I'm alone in my battle to win back my life, for the first time in my life I don't know how to change the way I feel anymore.

If my voice wasn't hoarse I'd go outside and scream myself hoarse...lol..
Dear God when is this all going to stop? Enough is enough I want my life back!

I know that everyone is tired of hearing about my wooooo's I can't blame you so am I.

But I need your prayers and any words of wisdom you can share with me.

Prim Blessings from my house to yours! May God give you all that you need to find Peace & Happiness in your heart!

Tonya